So, I'm not sure how noteworthy this news article actually is. I only bring it up because it sparked some very interesting thoughts when I read it. The Washington Post posted an article called, "Did Jesus have a wife?: New historical discovery raises old questions." Naturally, I read the article out of curiosity. I attached the link to the bottom of this, but if you're short on time here's a summary: Recently, a professor at Harvard Divinity school examined a piece of papyrus, which she is now calling, "The Gospel of Jesus' Wife." On this small sheet of paper there are fragmented sentences, one of which saying," Jesus said to them, 'My wife ...," and the other sentence saying, "she will be able to be my disciple." According to the author, there are still many tests to be done on the authenticity of this document, and the professor believes it was written many years after Jesus.
Now I'm not so much concerned about the document itself here, or its content. These controversies, unfortunately, aren't very new anymore. As for my personal belief, I stand for and acknowledge all of the teachings proclaimed by the Catholic Church, and I don't believe Jesus was ever married. But the part of this article that I am concerned with comes not from me being insulted by new historical discoveries that force the Church to stand up for the truth, but more so from me being insulted that I once more have to defend my womanhood. I feel like whenever an article like this comes up, there is always a paragraph or sentence devoted to how The Catholic Church does not allow women into the priesthood. I even read a tweet this afternoon referring to this article, that mentioned the author was excited to see what kind of waves this discovery might cause in the Church, and whether or not the Church would finally give women more power.
Now there's my problem: why in the world would I want or even need more power? As a woman, I was created in the beautiful image of God, to fulfill a role so uniquely designed, that only I could fill it. Then that same beautiful God, who created me out of such love and gave me such responsibility, chose to humble Himself so much to die for me and the grave sins I have committed, just so I could have the opportunity to live with Him forever, and with that take on the responsibility to spread His message to the world. Oh, and if He didn't give me enough "power" already, He also sent me His own Spirit, to personally confirm and guide me as a personal advocate to the Father. And then, daily, Jesus empties Himself so much that He allows me to consume His very presence in the Holy Eucharist. God has granted His Church unfathomable power, He has given the Church authority over the whole world, and as a member of His Church, I am a part of that authority, even though I am a woman. This immense love and power that God has trusted the Church with, is extremely wonderful, and at the same time extremely humbling and let's face it, kind of intimidating. Every time Jesus makes Himself present in the Mass, He is entrusting His WHOLE self to us! Just as He entrusted His whole self to Mary during His conception. I personally feel like God has granted me way more power than I could ever deserve, but apparently according to some members of society, I am suppose to be screaming for women's rights because I can't become a priest.
Well here's a shocker for society: I don't want to become a priest, nor does God want me to become a priest. The priesthood is a holy, beautiful gift to the Church, and from an outside perspective seems very powerful. But from my experience with my priest friends and seminarian friends, it is a vocation of humility, not of power. The priesthood is such a vital role to the Church, that it takes more than just a woman or a man to fulfill, it takes those servants created to do that role. Those people designed to stand in the place of Jesus and allow themselves to let Jesus use them to bring His church to His kingdom. The priesthood is not about power, it's about sacrifice and love for the one who sacrificed His all for us out of love. And just as I do not want to be a priest, I can tell you that no priest wants to become a mother, or a bride of Christ, both of which are holy, beautiful gifts to the Church. They, like the priesthood, are just as important to the Church, and it saddens me to think about how low the role woman has reached in society, that society can not even fathom the great importance of what being a woman entails! God has created each one of us beautifully and perfectly, and I don't want to change that, even if it would mean I would "gain earthly power" in the eyes of the world, cause let's face it, I don't want earthly power, I just want to be with Jesus forever.